With my ever growing interest in Art and currently the artist Lucian Freud, I recently watched a documentary about the artist entitled ‘Lucian Freud: Painted Life’. The documentary traced the life and muses of Freud with his written quotes and thoughts  evident throughout and cleverly used to punctuate  the documentary. One quote in particular stood out to me.
‘The promise of happiness is felt in the act of creation but disappears towards the completion of work.‘
For me Freud has pin pointed what it often feels like to be a creative, whether a writer, Musician, Dancer or Designer there is always an element of disappointment when a work in progress nears completion.
As a creative I find that the most rewarding part is the process. The coming up with ideas….the settling on just one idea and then getting really enthusiastic about the possibilities of it. I love the points where i can explore those possibilities and just ‘swim in research’ drafting and redrafting. i love thinking about what ‘it’ could be and ultimately what that might look like.
The whole  process of creation brings a new: new skills to gain, new ways to generate ideas, new people to meet and a new goal to reach vs a new problem to solve. But…. I find as you nearer the goal and have the solution often there is that hesitation and a desire to hold on a little bit longer simply because you dont want it to mean the end…  and for some reason, regardless of all the hard work… the end is unsatisfying.
Instead i am more than happy to  swim in research discover new possibilities i want to have the solution and know its right but never really have to call it the end… id rather keep drafting and redrafting and rewriting the end but never really reaching it.
But then in that instance im sure id have something new to be unsatisfied with.